The end before the beginning

This is the last bit of my story up until my most recent blog about to come on.. so read up before you begin...! :)

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A flash of light appears in front of my face as I’m halfway underway the hardest period of my treatment and sleeping off the Monday that had past, wondering if they were glimpses of my childhood and scared to shit that this would be my last night alive I grasped my girlfriends hand tightly. Again the flash comes in front of my face and I open my eyes just to be sure it’s not something foreign. 3 times more it happens and I finally decide that yes it is my death I’m facing tonight until on the 4^th time I hear my girlfriend say “ooh, what was that” I open my eyes quickly and go “what was what” she replies “I think I just saw some lightning” to me thinking lightning so I’m not going crazy, I try keeping my eyes open just long enough to see that it is before I continue to have a half hour conversation with her firstly discussing my thoughts when the first flash came across, and how she would’ve liked me to have woken her if I was worried or something was wrong so she could take me to the hospital, she’s so lovely, then discussing completely random things as she randomly got hungry at 3am in the morning and munching on Salada’s while hugging our new puppy and chatting away.

I think it’s important to have someone so willing to be there for me, she in no way deserves to have to go through the kind of stuff that I do and see me the way I am. And I can’t believe she puts up with half the stuff she does.